Monday, December 15, 2014

25 weeks.

How far along: 25 weeks and 1 day.
Gender: Still two boys. We didn't look super closely at the ultrasound today but it seems to be unchanged!
Weight gain: Closer to 20 pounds now I think. I haven't really been keeping track. The doctor said today that I was doing great though, so that's really all that matters. 
Maternity clothes: In full maternity clothes now! Now I don't have to pull my shirts down all the time, which is much more comfortable but now it's obvious to everyone what's going on. Not sure how it wasn't before, but oh well.
Stretch marks: Still none! Pretty excited about that, but my doctor told me today that I'm going to get a lot bigger... so it probably won't last forever.
Belly button in or out: It's still hanging in there, but it's getting really close to popping out!
Sleep: Sleep is still rough. My joints get really sore during the night and it's a real bummer. The ultrasound tech says to me today "wow they are really high up, are your ribs uncomfortable yet?" Uhhh ya think?!
Best moment this week: Getting to see them today at my appointment. It's always the best moment of the week when I get an ultrasound!
Miss anything: Sleep. I miss sleep. I have a feeling I'll be saying that for years to come!
Movement: Still nuts about swimming around in there. I think they are now too big to do flips, but they most certainly kick and  punch! They are busy busy, I have a feeling I'm in trouble!
Cravings: Still no real cravings. Ice cream maybe, but mostly I just love everything!
Queasy or sick: Nope, way past that. It's fabulous!
Looking forward to: Finishing up their room, finally. Need to hang shelves, fix the mobile... lots of things to do!

The last two weeks haven't been bad. I actually feel fine during the day, it's at night and when I'm trying to go to bed that I am most uncomfortable. Of course. My ankles have been getting pretty big but apparently that's normal. I guess I have "popped" in the last week or so. I wore all my maternity shirts last week and people were shocked I was pregnant. Like it hasn't been obvious for the last month or so?! My favorite was a coworker of mine, who is also pregnant, that looked at me last week and said "When did that happen?" Um like 24 weeks ago? Who says that? Some people are nice about it, but mostly it's getting annoying. People like to tell me how hard it's going to be and bummed they would be. And I'm all, thanks? I wish people would just say congrats and walk away. Other than that, it's been going really well. Makes me kind of nervous that it's been going so well but I'm going to stay positive and hope things continue to go well. I love these little guys. Got to see their faces today, and they look a lot less like skeletor! I can't wait to meet them but at the same time it is really ok for them to stay in there and cook! I'm just praying that the rest of the time goes by smoothly and everything turns out great!

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

23 Weeks.

How far along: 23 weeks and 2 days I think. I missed 21 weeks. I am bummed that I have poor follow through!
Gender: A Boy and a... Boy! Two boys, I was totally right! I knew all along!
Weight gain: Closer to 15 pounds I think, it's mostly belly honestly. 
Maternity clothes: Time to buy some maternity shirts. My shirts still fit but are way too short now. Time to give in and get some!
Stretch marks: Still just a few little white ones on my hips and butt, but none yet! Fingers crossed it stays that way!
Belly button in or out: It is soooo close to popping out! It gets smaller and smaller everyday. I should really take a picture of it everyday because it is hilarious.
Sleep: Sleep is getting harder. I wake up about every two hours to use the restroom and my ribs kill me every night so it's hard to comfortable. I just count it as sleep training for when they actually get here!
Best moment this week: Watching Chris get to feel them for the first time and watching them move through my skin. It is so weird, but probably the coolest thing ever.
Miss anything: Free movement. Seriously it's a bummer to have limited mobility all the time.
Movement: They move like Crazy! It's getting harder now too, and visible through my skin. It's nuts. 
Cravings: None in particular actually. Just loving food right now!
Queasy or sick: Nope that is way in the past and I LOVE it! I am physically uncomfortable but I'll take the over feeling queasy any day!
Looking forward to: Finishing up their room. Now that we know what they are I can go ahead and get all the decor done and it is so exciting!

I told everyone! I have literally been saying they were both boys since I found out they were twins at weeks 9! That was really exciting to find out. I don't know how people can wait until they deliver to find out! Now I can buy all the cute clothes and decorate their room. We have our eye on some names but we won't decide on those until they get here. I just feel more bonded to them now I guess, knowing that those are my boys in there and feeling their movements all the time. So far they seem to be growing great! At 21 weeks they were both about a pound at our big ultrasound so that is fantastic. This is just such an amazing experience, super uncomfortable physically, but when you think about it growing people is a pretty miraculous thing. I am very grateful that I was given this gift of these two growing boys, and I keep praying for their continued growth and good health. I just love them so much!

Monday, November 10, 2014

19 weeks.

  The angle wasn't great and neither was the lighting. Hence the black and white.
How far along: I am actually 20 weeks and 1 day today. I'm a bit behind. Shocker.
Gender: Still waiting! But not much longer, the big appointment in next Tuesday!
Weight gain: I think I am up closer to 10 pounds now, so that's an improvement!
Maternity clothes: Still in maternity pants, but about ready to move into the shirts. Mine still fit, but they have gotten a lot shorter. And I feel like I am almost to that point where I look pregnant and not just fat so I'm about ready to take advantage of the maternity shirts.
Stretch marks: I have found some really light white ones of my hips and upper butt. Chris claims he can't see them, but I can. As long as they stay white I will be happy. I'm hoping for none of the dark red ones.
Belly button in or out: Getting closer to poking out! It's getting really squished, I can barely see it most days.
Sleep: Sleep is better. Now that I have a routine down: I get up to use the bathroom at 2:30 and 4:30 and can usually go back to sleep. My body seems to have adjusted. Now I'm just tired because we're growing a ton. 
Best moment this week: So, I did a bad thing earlier this week and had some pop. Not much, like half a glass. But the babies lost.their.minds. Like bounced around in there for 3 hours straight. I won't be doing it again, but it was really cool to feel them so active!
Miss anything: Being able to move without making noise. Seriously every movement apparently requires some sort of grunt now. It's kind of ridiculous and I wish I could control it, but I honestly can't.
Movement: They have been moving more the last two weeks. And it's moving from flutters to actual kicks and/or punches which is really neat. They move in the morning and at night and usually sometime mid-day. It's probably the coolest thing ever. 
Cravings: Ice cream. I can't make it through a day without eating some ice cream, it's nuts.
Queasy or sick: We have officially moved past the morning sickness and it is glorious! I still have pretty strong food aversions, not a lot sounds good to, but at least I can force myself to eat more meat and things. Which is good, they need it! 
Looking forward to: The big appointment next week! Not only am I excited to find out what's bouncing around in there, but I am excited to see how they are growing and to make sure everything is ok. I get really stressed before appointments because I am always worried something will go wrong. So I will be super happy when it's over and I know they are healthy and happy!

I've decided to do pictures every other week because I feel like I don't see much of a difference. Other people claim they can, and people are starting to notice that I am pregnant now but honestly I would have a hard time remembering every week! Mostly things seem to be going great. I feel like I am getting bigger, even if I don't feel like I look it. I am getting more uncomfortable by the day, it's not too bad now but I am not super excited for like February when I no longer can see my feet. The morning sickness has passed, but I think we have moved into the hormonal stage. And by hormonal, I mean bitchy all the time. I feel sentimental a good amount of the time, but I usually feel irritated more then anything else. Like how this week some foster parents I work with found out that I was pregnant, and made sure to inform me that's it's going to be "really hard for the first two years." Ok, they are really nice people and I am sure they are trying to be helpful, but really how helpful is that? I know it's going to be really hard, I don't really need people reminding me of that fact all the time. Sometimes I wish people would just say congrats and move on. Oh well. Other than that, things have been going well and I look forward to them continuing to go well!

Monday, October 20, 2014

17 Weeks.

(I tried to smile like a normal person. It did not work. I promise I'm happy!)

How far along: 17 weeks and 1 day!
Gender: We will find out on Nov. 18th! At my appointment today one baby has a heartbeat of 153 and the other is at 147 now, I'm hoping the old wives tale is right and it's a boy and a girl!
Weight gain: I am up about 5 pounds! I lost 12 in the first trimester, but I'm a little overweight so the doctor isn't concerned.
Maternity clothes: I am now in maternity pants. I can still fit into my shirts, but they are getting a a little short!
Stretch marks: Not yet, but I am very itchy right now so trying not to itch so I don't get them!
Belly button in or out: Still in!
Sleep: Some nights are good, some not so much. I am not strictly a side sleeper now which can make me stiff and I am up at 3am sharp to go to the bathroom every night.
Best moment this week: Seeing the babies today! They were both moving around, kicking their tiny legs! I saw a little face and a spine. It was really neat. 
Miss anything: Being able to bend over and move normally. Not getting winded coming up and down the basement steps. Basically any normal non-pregnant movement.
Movement: I think I have felt some flutters the last week or two, but nothing for sure yet. I am really excited to be able to feel them though!
Cravings: Sweets mostly. And sunflower seeds!
Queasy or sick: I think the morning sickness is finally easing up. I don't want to jinx it though! I thought that week before last then last week was horrific. But hopefully it's almost done so I can start gaining weight! So weird to say but I don't want little babies!
Looking forward to: Our big ultrasound next month! Excited to finally be able to answer the "what are they?" question and make sure they are growing on track!

I got these neat questions from the blog Little Baby Garvin,  I thought it was a fun way to keep track of the weeks! So far, this pregnancy has been rough. Morning sickness is a real bummer and it makes me feel bad because I am not able to eat all that I should. So I am hoping that it is finally going away so I can start gaining all the weight I need to. I am getting uncomfortable already, back pain, hip pain and trouble sleeping. I have to keep reminding myself that being sick is actually a good thing, it means they are still doing well and growing! And the discomfort I'll just get used to, I wanted this and that's just how it is! At the end of the day I am very grateful and excited for these little guys to get here! I will admit it hits me sometimes and makes me really nervous. A coworker of mine just had her baby today and it hit me that once they get here, that's it. Our lives will never be the same and that's mostly good. There will obviously be some rough times, especially when they are tiny but it'll all be worth it. I am just so happy they are doing well and bouncing around in there like happy campers!

This is the picture I took at 15 weeks, it's pretty much the same as week 17 which is why I didn't post it. Bosley decided to sneak in the picture.

The Best Surprise.

On August 26th we went in for our first doctors appointment. I was super nervous the whole day, I am always a worst case scenario type of person so my biggest concern was making sure something wasn't wrong. We get there, sign in, do all the paperwork. When it's time for the ultrasound, the technician comes out to get us and we head on back. First we do the tummy ultrasound ( I have no idea what it's actually supposed to be called!) just to check things out. It was really exciting when she said to us "Well there is a heartbeat!" I smiled at the screen and she kept moving the little wand around and said to us "And there is the other heartbeat."
I believe my exact words were: "Wait, what?"

 I made it extra large so you can see. Thing A and thing B! They rhymed but I did not plan it.

Chris and I just looked at each other confused and the tech was like, "It's twins! Do they run in your family?" To which we both said "Nope!" Needless to say, it was the biggest surprise ever. We did more ultrasounds, measured both babies and listened to their heartbeats. Both were measuring on track at 9 weeks. For the second half of our appointment we talked to our doctor and she was really excited. She even asked if we were on fertility medication! (we weren't for the record.) Having twins comes with a bit higher risk. They have a higher chance or miscarriage, but I am 11 weeks and now and still everything seems to be good. And they also have problems with pre-term labor. She basically told us that if we get them to 36 or 37 weeks that would be awesome but they won't get to 40 weeks. Their due date is still March 28th, but most likely they will come in early March. Also a bummer, I will most likely have a c-section. She is says it is difficult to vaginally deliver twins, especially for first time moms like myself. She said we will track their growth and see what happens. 
Telling family and friends was probably the best part. When I first found out I was pregnant, I told my mom first. At about 6 weeks, I got really sick with what I thought was the flu ( I actually think it was twins hormones kicking in cause it never fully went away and turned into all day morning sickness.) and I needed to tell someone because Chris was out of town. My sister actually was really excited and hugged me, my mom was excited too but you could tell she was really shocked. We told Chris's mom next, she's not very emotional but seemed really excited also. We called my Dad and we was thrilled as well. 
Fast forward to week 9. We decided to wait and tell my Grandma until after the appointment to make sure everything was ok. We were having dinner together that night so we went to my mom's house and I after some chit-chat I brought out the sonogram and told my Grandma she was going to be a great grandma. She of course cried and was very happy. I then asked her "Are you excited to be a great grandma?" and she said yes so I said " Awesome, cause you're gonna be a great grandma again!" My Grandma and my mom both just stared at us confused and shocked. My mom was the first to catch on and started screaming and I brought out the final sonogram above and told her that there were 2 babies, we were having twins! They both just lost it at that point hugging and crying and it was hilarious. We called my Dad and sister and neither one of them believed us. We said to me dad "We have news." and he said "It's not twins is it?" And I said "Well actually, it is!" Everyone was shocked but also excited. I told a few friends that day and the responses I got were "are you kidding" Nope! We told Chris's mom later that night and she just laughed. She said "Well you have and instant family!" and we sure do!
It most certainly has been an adjustment thinking of growing, birthing and raising 2 babies instead of just one. The first week was really stressful because I am a planner and I had to rearrange all of my plans but everyone has been really supportive and helpful and after some time I am starting to get excited about having 2 babies. Of course it will be hard, but I think it will also be twice the fun. We're almost out of the first trimester now and that's exciting because a lot of the risk is going down. Now I just have to stay healthy and keep them in there as long as I can so they come out when it's time. 
I am so excited to meet both of you babies. I can't believe how blessed we are to be parents to both of you and get to experience the magic that is having twins. With that being said, please go easy on us :) We love you so much! Keep growing and stay healthy in there, I promise I can take it!

So this happened.

I wasn't really expecting anything to happen. We tried last month, like really tried and nothing happened. Then this month I was sick and we didn't really try all that much so I didn't think it would happen this month. I thought to myself, I'll just lose some weight for Vegas and we'll try again in August when I get back.
Fast forward to last Tuesday, July 22nd. I had been really tired all week, super stressed with people in and out of the house fixing cars and my electrical problems. I had some cramps, all seemed like normal PMS. I thought to myself again, not this month I guess. On Tuesday though, I got my girly box out of the cupboard, I had a nail that needed fixing and I saw my last pregnancy test in the box. I looked at it and said "What the hell right? It's my last one, might as well use it up." So I went ahead and took the test. I didn't even have to wait for the recommended time because about 30 seconds later one line appeared, followed very quickly by that second line. To say I was in shock is an understatement. I had never seen a positive test before. In the last year or so I had taken a few tests, hoping they were all positive but none of them turned out to be. So to see those two little lines, was a very crazy moment. Wonderful, exciting, happy, crazy moment.
Of course I then went to tell Chris. He was out in the garage, but after yelling his name a few times he came in. I believe my exact words were "You're going to be a real grown up now!" and I showed him the test to confirm. He was obviously shocked as well. Like any guy, he was enjoying the trying part but I think he secretly hoped it wouldn't take for a while longer. We hugged and kissed super awkwardly because at this point I was shaking out of excitement. After a while it really set in with Chris and he's been listing things he can't do/afford all week now that there is a baby coming, but I just ignore him. He was really scared when we bought our house too but I know he loves it. So I'll just wait until the baby actually gets here, see how he feels then.
It's now almost a week later and I took that second test today. It also didn't make it to the recommended time, so I'm pretty sure it's going to stick! I really hope it does. It feels so surreal, knowing there is a tiny human growing in there. I am excited but also super stressed all at once. I was reading another blog post the other day about how another woman found out she was pregnant and how when she told her mom, her mom told her to take care of herself for the baby. And it just hit me, you really become a mom right when you find out. I have been working all week to eat better, drink more water, stress less and even use the right kind of shampoo all so this baby can get the best possible start. I would say that's being a mom. I have had to make some sacrifices, but I do them happily, just so my baby is well.
In short, I am so so grateful that we have been blessed with this baby. I know some people really struggle with having a baby and I feel really blessed that we have been chosen to be this tiny humans parents. I know it's going to be hard, but I absolutely cannot wait to start this journey as parents. I think it will be the best adventure of our lives. So you hang on in there tiny baby. I promise to take care of you, just hang on in there.

Monday, June 9, 2014

Hello there.

Wow its been a while since I posted. I decided what the hell, might as well do a catch up post! Mostly because I never posted about the Holidays, which is a bummer since they were awesome this year. I never posted about Halloween, which was fun because it was the first one in our house. I didn't go all out because we were so focused on the wedding and stuff, but I have big plans for next year!

Thanksgiving was pretty low key this year, my mom and sister went back to Montana to be with my Dad so it was just Chris and I and my Grandma and Bonnie. It was still fun though, and dinner turned out great.

We had everyone over to our house for Christmas this year, we hosted brunch. I really liked doing something early so Chris and I could just relax and enjoy in the evening.

All decorated for Christmas.

Awesome Christmas party with friends.

Sad face reindeer puppy.

New Years was fun, we spent it with Ashley and Andrew playing games and eating delicious fondue.

Bosley turned One year old in January! So of course we made him a cake and sang happy birthday to him!

Then in February we had a huge snow storm, we actually got about 5 inches of snow, it was a lot of fun! Not so much for me, because I had my wisdom teeth taken out that same weekend, but at least the snow was pretty to look at!

Our little leprechaun.

And our big old Easter bunny. Look how big he is compared to last year! Sad face.

And now, here we are again, about to start another summer. We have the garden in, windows open and it is great. I really used to hate summer, but it is certainly way more fun in  our own home. I hope to come back and update here more often. No one reads this, but it's really fun to look back at, even if it's just for me!