Monday, November 10, 2014

19 weeks.

  The angle wasn't great and neither was the lighting. Hence the black and white.
How far along: I am actually 20 weeks and 1 day today. I'm a bit behind. Shocker.
Gender: Still waiting! But not much longer, the big appointment in next Tuesday!
Weight gain: I think I am up closer to 10 pounds now, so that's an improvement!
Maternity clothes: Still in maternity pants, but about ready to move into the shirts. Mine still fit, but they have gotten a lot shorter. And I feel like I am almost to that point where I look pregnant and not just fat so I'm about ready to take advantage of the maternity shirts.
Stretch marks: I have found some really light white ones of my hips and upper butt. Chris claims he can't see them, but I can. As long as they stay white I will be happy. I'm hoping for none of the dark red ones.
Belly button in or out: Getting closer to poking out! It's getting really squished, I can barely see it most days.
Sleep: Sleep is better. Now that I have a routine down: I get up to use the bathroom at 2:30 and 4:30 and can usually go back to sleep. My body seems to have adjusted. Now I'm just tired because we're growing a ton. 
Best moment this week: So, I did a bad thing earlier this week and had some pop. Not much, like half a glass. But the babies lost.their.minds. Like bounced around in there for 3 hours straight. I won't be doing it again, but it was really cool to feel them so active!
Miss anything: Being able to move without making noise. Seriously every movement apparently requires some sort of grunt now. It's kind of ridiculous and I wish I could control it, but I honestly can't.
Movement: They have been moving more the last two weeks. And it's moving from flutters to actual kicks and/or punches which is really neat. They move in the morning and at night and usually sometime mid-day. It's probably the coolest thing ever. 
Cravings: Ice cream. I can't make it through a day without eating some ice cream, it's nuts.
Queasy or sick: We have officially moved past the morning sickness and it is glorious! I still have pretty strong food aversions, not a lot sounds good to, but at least I can force myself to eat more meat and things. Which is good, they need it! 
Looking forward to: The big appointment next week! Not only am I excited to find out what's bouncing around in there, but I am excited to see how they are growing and to make sure everything is ok. I get really stressed before appointments because I am always worried something will go wrong. So I will be super happy when it's over and I know they are healthy and happy!

I've decided to do pictures every other week because I feel like I don't see much of a difference. Other people claim they can, and people are starting to notice that I am pregnant now but honestly I would have a hard time remembering every week! Mostly things seem to be going great. I feel like I am getting bigger, even if I don't feel like I look it. I am getting more uncomfortable by the day, it's not too bad now but I am not super excited for like February when I no longer can see my feet. The morning sickness has passed, but I think we have moved into the hormonal stage. And by hormonal, I mean bitchy all the time. I feel sentimental a good amount of the time, but I usually feel irritated more then anything else. Like how this week some foster parents I work with found out that I was pregnant, and made sure to inform me that's it's going to be "really hard for the first two years." Ok, they are really nice people and I am sure they are trying to be helpful, but really how helpful is that? I know it's going to be really hard, I don't really need people reminding me of that fact all the time. Sometimes I wish people would just say congrats and move on. Oh well. Other than that, things have been going well and I look forward to them continuing to go well!

Monday, October 20, 2014

17 Weeks.

(I tried to smile like a normal person. It did not work. I promise I'm happy!)

How far along: 17 weeks and 1 day!
Gender: We will find out on Nov. 18th! At my appointment today one baby has a heartbeat of 153 and the other is at 147 now, I'm hoping the old wives tale is right and it's a boy and a girl!
Weight gain: I am up about 5 pounds! I lost 12 in the first trimester, but I'm a little overweight so the doctor isn't concerned.
Maternity clothes: I am now in maternity pants. I can still fit into my shirts, but they are getting a a little short!
Stretch marks: Not yet, but I am very itchy right now so trying not to itch so I don't get them!
Belly button in or out: Still in!
Sleep: Some nights are good, some not so much. I am not strictly a side sleeper now which can make me stiff and I am up at 3am sharp to go to the bathroom every night.
Best moment this week: Seeing the babies today! They were both moving around, kicking their tiny legs! I saw a little face and a spine. It was really neat. 
Miss anything: Being able to bend over and move normally. Not getting winded coming up and down the basement steps. Basically any normal non-pregnant movement.
Movement: I think I have felt some flutters the last week or two, but nothing for sure yet. I am really excited to be able to feel them though!
Cravings: Sweets mostly. And sunflower seeds!
Queasy or sick: I think the morning sickness is finally easing up. I don't want to jinx it though! I thought that week before last then last week was horrific. But hopefully it's almost done so I can start gaining weight! So weird to say but I don't want little babies!
Looking forward to: Our big ultrasound next month! Excited to finally be able to answer the "what are they?" question and make sure they are growing on track!

I got these neat questions from the blog Little Baby Garvin,  I thought it was a fun way to keep track of the weeks! So far, this pregnancy has been rough. Morning sickness is a real bummer and it makes me feel bad because I am not able to eat all that I should. So I am hoping that it is finally going away so I can start gaining all the weight I need to. I am getting uncomfortable already, back pain, hip pain and trouble sleeping. I have to keep reminding myself that being sick is actually a good thing, it means they are still doing well and growing! And the discomfort I'll just get used to, I wanted this and that's just how it is! At the end of the day I am very grateful and excited for these little guys to get here! I will admit it hits me sometimes and makes me really nervous. A coworker of mine just had her baby today and it hit me that once they get here, that's it. Our lives will never be the same and that's mostly good. There will obviously be some rough times, especially when they are tiny but it'll all be worth it. I am just so happy they are doing well and bouncing around in there like happy campers!

This is the picture I took at 15 weeks, it's pretty much the same as week 17 which is why I didn't post it. Bosley decided to sneak in the picture.

The Best Surprise.

On August 26th we went in for our first doctors appointment. I was super nervous the whole day, I am always a worst case scenario type of person so my biggest concern was making sure something wasn't wrong. We get there, sign in, do all the paperwork. When it's time for the ultrasound, the technician comes out to get us and we head on back. First we do the tummy ultrasound ( I have no idea what it's actually supposed to be called!) just to check things out. It was really exciting when she said to us "Well there is a heartbeat!" I smiled at the screen and she kept moving the little wand around and said to us "And there is the other heartbeat."
I believe my exact words were: "Wait, what?"

 I made it extra large so you can see. Thing A and thing B! They rhymed but I did not plan it.

Chris and I just looked at each other confused and the tech was like, "It's twins! Do they run in your family?" To which we both said "Nope!" Needless to say, it was the biggest surprise ever. We did more ultrasounds, measured both babies and listened to their heartbeats. Both were measuring on track at 9 weeks. For the second half of our appointment we talked to our doctor and she was really excited. She even asked if we were on fertility medication! (we weren't for the record.) Having twins comes with a bit higher risk. They have a higher chance or miscarriage, but I am 11 weeks and now and still everything seems to be good. And they also have problems with pre-term labor. She basically told us that if we get them to 36 or 37 weeks that would be awesome but they won't get to 40 weeks. Their due date is still March 28th, but most likely they will come in early March. Also a bummer, I will most likely have a c-section. She is says it is difficult to vaginally deliver twins, especially for first time moms like myself. She said we will track their growth and see what happens. 
Telling family and friends was probably the best part. When I first found out I was pregnant, I told my mom first. At about 6 weeks, I got really sick with what I thought was the flu ( I actually think it was twins hormones kicking in cause it never fully went away and turned into all day morning sickness.) and I needed to tell someone because Chris was out of town. My sister actually was really excited and hugged me, my mom was excited too but you could tell she was really shocked. We told Chris's mom next, she's not very emotional but seemed really excited also. We called my Dad and we was thrilled as well. 
Fast forward to week 9. We decided to wait and tell my Grandma until after the appointment to make sure everything was ok. We were having dinner together that night so we went to my mom's house and I after some chit-chat I brought out the sonogram and told my Grandma she was going to be a great grandma. She of course cried and was very happy. I then asked her "Are you excited to be a great grandma?" and she said yes so I said " Awesome, cause you're gonna be a great grandma again!" My Grandma and my mom both just stared at us confused and shocked. My mom was the first to catch on and started screaming and I brought out the final sonogram above and told her that there were 2 babies, we were having twins! They both just lost it at that point hugging and crying and it was hilarious. We called my Dad and sister and neither one of them believed us. We said to me dad "We have news." and he said "It's not twins is it?" And I said "Well actually, it is!" Everyone was shocked but also excited. I told a few friends that day and the responses I got were "are you kidding" Nope! We told Chris's mom later that night and she just laughed. She said "Well you have and instant family!" and we sure do!
It most certainly has been an adjustment thinking of growing, birthing and raising 2 babies instead of just one. The first week was really stressful because I am a planner and I had to rearrange all of my plans but everyone has been really supportive and helpful and after some time I am starting to get excited about having 2 babies. Of course it will be hard, but I think it will also be twice the fun. We're almost out of the first trimester now and that's exciting because a lot of the risk is going down. Now I just have to stay healthy and keep them in there as long as I can so they come out when it's time. 
I am so excited to meet both of you babies. I can't believe how blessed we are to be parents to both of you and get to experience the magic that is having twins. With that being said, please go easy on us :) We love you so much! Keep growing and stay healthy in there, I promise I can take it!

So this happened.

I wasn't really expecting anything to happen. We tried last month, like really tried and nothing happened. Then this month I was sick and we didn't really try all that much so I didn't think it would happen this month. I thought to myself, I'll just lose some weight for Vegas and we'll try again in August when I get back.
Fast forward to last Tuesday, July 22nd. I had been really tired all week, super stressed with people in and out of the house fixing cars and my electrical problems. I had some cramps, all seemed like normal PMS. I thought to myself again, not this month I guess. On Tuesday though, I got my girly box out of the cupboard, I had a nail that needed fixing and I saw my last pregnancy test in the box. I looked at it and said "What the hell right? It's my last one, might as well use it up." So I went ahead and took the test. I didn't even have to wait for the recommended time because about 30 seconds later one line appeared, followed very quickly by that second line. To say I was in shock is an understatement. I had never seen a positive test before. In the last year or so I had taken a few tests, hoping they were all positive but none of them turned out to be. So to see those two little lines, was a very crazy moment. Wonderful, exciting, happy, crazy moment.
Of course I then went to tell Chris. He was out in the garage, but after yelling his name a few times he came in. I believe my exact words were "You're going to be a real grown up now!" and I showed him the test to confirm. He was obviously shocked as well. Like any guy, he was enjoying the trying part but I think he secretly hoped it wouldn't take for a while longer. We hugged and kissed super awkwardly because at this point I was shaking out of excitement. After a while it really set in with Chris and he's been listing things he can't do/afford all week now that there is a baby coming, but I just ignore him. He was really scared when we bought our house too but I know he loves it. So I'll just wait until the baby actually gets here, see how he feels then.
It's now almost a week later and I took that second test today. It also didn't make it to the recommended time, so I'm pretty sure it's going to stick! I really hope it does. It feels so surreal, knowing there is a tiny human growing in there. I am excited but also super stressed all at once. I was reading another blog post the other day about how another woman found out she was pregnant and how when she told her mom, her mom told her to take care of herself for the baby. And it just hit me, you really become a mom right when you find out. I have been working all week to eat better, drink more water, stress less and even use the right kind of shampoo all so this baby can get the best possible start. I would say that's being a mom. I have had to make some sacrifices, but I do them happily, just so my baby is well.
In short, I am so so grateful that we have been blessed with this baby. I know some people really struggle with having a baby and I feel really blessed that we have been chosen to be this tiny humans parents. I know it's going to be hard, but I absolutely cannot wait to start this journey as parents. I think it will be the best adventure of our lives. So you hang on in there tiny baby. I promise to take care of you, just hang on in there.

Monday, June 9, 2014

Hello there.

Wow its been a while since I posted. I decided what the hell, might as well do a catch up post! Mostly because I never posted about the Holidays, which is a bummer since they were awesome this year. I never posted about Halloween, which was fun because it was the first one in our house. I didn't go all out because we were so focused on the wedding and stuff, but I have big plans for next year!

Thanksgiving was pretty low key this year, my mom and sister went back to Montana to be with my Dad so it was just Chris and I and my Grandma and Bonnie. It was still fun though, and dinner turned out great.

We had everyone over to our house for Christmas this year, we hosted brunch. I really liked doing something early so Chris and I could just relax and enjoy in the evening.

All decorated for Christmas.

Awesome Christmas party with friends.

Sad face reindeer puppy.

New Years was fun, we spent it with Ashley and Andrew playing games and eating delicious fondue.

Bosley turned One year old in January! So of course we made him a cake and sang happy birthday to him!

Then in February we had a huge snow storm, we actually got about 5 inches of snow, it was a lot of fun! Not so much for me, because I had my wisdom teeth taken out that same weekend, but at least the snow was pretty to look at!

Our little leprechaun.

And our big old Easter bunny. Look how big he is compared to last year! Sad face.

And now, here we are again, about to start another summer. We have the garden in, windows open and it is great. I really used to hate summer, but it is certainly way more fun in  our own home. I hope to come back and update here more often. No one reads this, but it's really fun to look back at, even if it's just for me!

Monday, January 6, 2014

Our Honeymoon

Chris told me, even before we got engaged, that he would rather do some sort of really neat road trip instead of just a week on the beach somewhere. I agreed, not only because I don't like swimsuits, but because we get bored easily. The only problem was, he wanted to do an epic trip to Yellowstone park... which closes down in September. Opps. A downside to getting married in October, it's still mild in Oregon, but it's pretty much winter elsewhere. So we thought about it and a big part of why I wanted to get married in October was so that we could go to Oktoberfest in Germany as a honeymoon. Kind of a big dream that turned out to be difficult as new homeowners, so we worked out a plan to go to the beach (Astoria, which isn't actually on the beach FYI but just as beautiful) then spend some time in Seattle where we have some great memories, then finally head to Leavenworth Washington so we could still go to Oktoberfest. It turned out to be a really fun trip, we spent a night in Astoria, 2 in Seattle and 2 in Leavenworth. In hindsight we really wished we would have spent another night in Astoria, there was a lot more to do than we thought and our room was incredible. We might be going back for our one year anniversary though, so even though we didn't get a lot of time there on our honeymoon we can always go back! It was a great week, filled with a lot of memories and fun, probably one of the funniest memories being that on our way back home, we were about 2 or 3 hours from home, our truck transmission stopped working. We had to be towed to the nearest town where a friend of ours picked us up. Certainly a week full of memories!

The view from  our hotel room. Love it.

Chris was super excited that this car took us to dinner that night. It was really fun and Pam was an excellent driver!

The hotel we stayed in. Can't wait to go back!

Sunset from our hotel room. Want to go back!

Astoria Column. Next time I will climb it!

The Goonies house! Not as cool as I thought, but still neat. But the owners regret moving in this place.

Chris LOVES sea lions. Seriously there are least 50 more pictures like this on my camera. He stood there for like 30 minutes.

Goodbye Astoria, sad face.

Space Needle, always love that place.

This time I took Chris to the Science Center in Seattle, hands down, way better than OMSI. It's smaller than I remember obviously, but still way cooler!

And Chris doubted me. How silly. He was here for 20 minutes playing with the water guns.

Top of the Space Needle.

As we left Seattle for Leavenworth, we made a stop at the Jimi Hendrix memorial. It was really neat.

The scenery in Leavenworth, so beautiful.

I didn't get as many pictures of Leavenworth as I thought, I was too busy shopping I guess! But it was a really beautiful little town.

So there you have it, our epic road trip honeymoon. It was so much fun, a week I will treasure for our lifetime together.

Thursday, January 2, 2014

October 12, 2013

I struggled with even posting this, apparently people are over blogging but no one even reads my blog so why not right? It's been almost 3 months since Chris and I got married and it turned out to be a wonderful day. Just like everyone says, it went by in a blur and I didn't even get a chance to say hello to everyone!
It started off with my maid of Honor and I getting ready at my house. I can still feel how nervous I was, not to get married, but that something would go wrong or that I would fall down walking down the isle! Anyway we got ready and headed to McMenamin's Old Church. We all did a quick run through of the ceremony, then went our separate ways to get ready to go. Oh my goodness was I nervous! We all got ready to go, exchanged some gifts and Chris and I exchanged notes. He didn't see me of course! That's bad luck. I remember taking a few pictures then finally getting up the Church to walk down the isle. My Dad walked me down the isle and then Chris and I had our wedding ceremony. It was such a blur. I'm so glad we got video of it because I was so nervous I had a hard time remembering what even went on!
After the ceremony we took a TON of pictures, then came back in to eat. The Best Man and Maid of Honor gave their speeches, Chris and I had a little thank you speech, then we cut the cake. More pictures, then it started to wind down and a lot of people left. Around 8pm everyone had pretty much cleared out. The great part was that our close friends stayed and we ended up hanging out until around 11 before Chris and I left for the night, with a burnout of course! All in all I would say it was a wonderful day.

There are so many more pictures, all together I got about 650 pictures from our wonderful photographer Kim. I love how she got a mixture of candids, funny pictures and really beautiful ones. I was skeptical about having a wedding in the first place, but it did turn out to be the best day of my life. I am so lucky to have such a wonderful family to provide such a beautiful wedding, and to have such a wonderful man to marry.